Well here I am. Something stupid must have happened in my life again for me to be here to tell you guys about it. Well it did so, that's what I plan on doing.
Saturday I had planned a month before hand on going out to lunch with my bestie for her birthday. It ended up turning into me going with 2 of my besties since their birthdays are just 2 days apart. Originally we planned on going to McAlister's Deli and i was going to surprise them and pay for it. Well, I got there and bestie texts and says "hey, Brian is treating, you wanna go somewhere else?" I'm like "it's your birthday, you pick." So we ended up going to B.J's Steakhouse. Very good food! Highly recommend. Well I was in a mood that day already because I had found out an old friend had passed away a few years back. So I'm like fuck it! I'm gonna drink. I had ONE margarita....okay, I'll be realistic. I had 1/4th of a margarita, but I'm a suuuuuuuuper lightweight and yeah. So we ate our food and drank our drinks. After that we went to the mall, TJ MAXX, 5 Below and Burlington. Well we ended up being out from 2 until 730. I got home at 8.
Well with me being out alll day long like that, apparently it means I was out with more than just my friends. I was questioned who all I was with. I was furious when I was asked this. I'm like I was with my girls and my girls only. Then he decided my girls boyfriend was with us because he had paid for the food. I'm like he wasn't. Not even sure why that would matter. So the long and short of the situation is, he thinks I was out cheating because I was out as long as I was.
I've been pissed off and angry for the past 24 hours. He's been childish and not speaking to me because who the hell even knows. I've avoided doing things while he's home because hey, might get accused of cheating again. So now it seems I cant even hang out with my girls without getting accused of shit. I guess I'm just destined to be stuck in the house forever and play house wife.
I feel like Cinderella and hell even Belle at times....Stockholm Syndrome. I can't leave because I have no family to take me and 4 kids in. My mother currently lives with us and she would be the only one I would go to. I can't go out and get a job because no one to watch the kids. I'm trying to make money doing the twitch thing, but I can never enjoy myself when I stream anymore. I've buried myself in my PC playing Sims because it's the only enjoyment I get anymore. Can't be trusted anymore with anything......just let the depression go even further in.
