Hello everyone! I know it's been almost a month since I've posted last, but so much has been going on in my life and I've been battling some depression. This whole month has been a whirl wind of emotions.
This month, I lost my grandma. She was my last living grandparent. I was able to see her a few days before she passed. I gave her a hug and told her I loved her. It was so hard leaving her that day. I know that she is in a much better place now and in no more pain. While my Aunts and Uncle fought over money, all I asked for was the extra silverware she had at her house. Nothing will bring her back. Emma and Alex were too little to understand what was going on. Kayla was upset at losing her Great Grandmother. The funeral was small and family only. She didn't want a big fuss. I am happy that she is at the cemetery that's not far from me. So I can visit her when I need to.
The depression I've been battling is in part to losing my grandma. I also have some other stuff going on that I'm not ready to share yet but it's been a big reality check. I'm trying so hard to stay functioning for the kids. I can't shut down. I have to be there for them. Do I have sad moments during the day? Sure I do. I'll let a few tears fall but then I pull myself together and move on. My mood effects the kids moods. So I try not to let my mood show too much.
Now onto some positive stuff. Kayla had her awards assembly at school the other day. She got 3 awards. She made Honor Roll, received the Citizenship Award, and also a new award called the Principled award. The Principled Award is an award for one student per class who is always doing good and being kind. That kind of thing. I was pretty proud that she received that award. Her report card consisted of A's and B's. This year has been a little tougher for her but she's slowly getting the hang of things.
Today is Halloween. I didn't get a picture of Kayla in her costume. She's using a costume from previous years ago. She's being Princess Jasmine. Emma was Queen Elsa. Alex was Spiderman. The 2 youngest are most likely not going out tonight since the temperature will be low 40's. I have living in Ohio sometimes. Plus the 2 youngest have colds. I'd rather them stay inside and keep warm and watch cartoons.
Emma did get to trick or treat at school today. She got a few pieces of candy. They decorated their bags yesterday at school. They also played with a pumpkin and carved it and cleaned it out. Emma told me they made pumpkin pie. I laughed. They didn't really but it was cute that's what she thought.
The rest of the week will be fun. Thursday, Alex has an appointment to check his weight at the pediatrician. With him having a cold now I don't know how his weight will be. If it's still not good, I'll ask them to fill out a paper so maybe he can get on some pediasure through WIC. It'll help him gain a little weight. Friday I have Emma's parent teacher meeting at school to see how she's doing. Saturday my friend's and I are having some holiday festivities. We're calling it Friendsgiving. It will be our first time doing this. Each of us is making something and we're going to have a nice dinner together. Alex and Emma may be staying home though since they are sick. We'll see how they feel. I can't wait to post pictures from that.
I hope you all have a great Halloween. I will try not to be so long between posts again! Have a fun day!
