pregnancy and stuff

I haven't talked about how pregnancy is going for me for awhile. This week I'll be coming up on 30 weeks.

I'm ready to just be done with pregnancy. a couple of weekends ago I went through the joys of nesting. I was cleaning so much. I was at the point of crying because I was so tired of cleaning but my body wouldn't let me stop. And to be honest.....the way my house looks today, you wouldn't really be able to tell any nesting was done. The majority of it was done in the bedrooms. As of a day or two ago my cleaning has slowed down because my sides begin to hurt when doing too much. so i try to do one thing a day. so today I'm gonna try to tackle the dishes. its just bowls and sippy cups. I'll let them soak for awhile then i just rinse them off.

Thursday I decided to go out to Medina to a sale called the Big Red Wagon. It s a traveling resale shop. They spend 3 days in a city and then head out. I'm lucky to live by a few of the stops they make. I ended up spending $90 on just clothes for Brianna. The girl needed clothes. The way the pile looks is small but I did get a lot of stuff. I got sizes 0-3 months and size 3-6 months. I need to get a dresser or a plastic dresser for her still to get stuff put away and get a better idea of all she has. heck maybe i'll lay stuff out and figure it all out. She'll be doing a lot of onesies and dresses this summer to keep cool. With humidity it can sometimes reach 100 degrees here in Cleveland, Ohio. Thank God for air conditioning. I've also been getting everything else she needs. We have bottles, pacifiers, diapers, a pack n play with a bassinet on top, bath stuff, and basically everything. The one item I'm missing that I'm trying to find cheap is a rock n play. It was my life saver with Emma and Alex. They loved that thing and it was very travel handy with folding up and taking on the go. I was hoping to snatch one at Toys R Us with the closing going on, but no such luck. Also no luck at Big Red Wagon. I will probably end up ordering one online from Walmart or something. Another thing I need to grab are a few receiving blankets. I will do that at the next Big Red Wagon in a couple of weeks for the Cleveland area.

I'm sure some of you are like "Well why are you not getting this stuff with having a baby shower?" The answer is simple. I'm not having one. I've had 3 kids and every baby shower was a disaster. I'm not putting myself through the bullshit of no one showing. So I'm getting stuff all on my own. I've told people they are free to buy me something if they want. It's their choice though.

So as I said earlier I will be 30 weeks on Thursday. Which for me means I have about 7-8 more weeks left. Hell maybe even 6 weeks. Its a scary thought. My kids like to come on their terms. My girls came at 38 weeks and Alex at just a day under 37 weeks. The time has gone by super fast. It's always a fun and fast pregnancy when you get to be pregnant with someone else. With Alex I was pregnant with my best friend Adrienne. We were like 6 weeks apart. Our boys are a month apart. With this pregnancy, I'm 7 weeks behind my cousin. She will be popping any week now.

The only test I have left will be the Strep B test and that's done at like 35 weeks or 36 weeks. It's supposed to tell you if you will go into labor early. Or that's one of the things it does. It's honestly a very inaccurate test. Not even sure why it's done. I had my sugar test about a month ago. My iron is low and also my B12 is low. So I've been trying to eat more foods with those. Plus I'm on an iron pill I take twice a day. I go to see a Hematologist next week. I was actually supposed to go today but I have a sick little boy and no one to watch him. So hopefully all goes well with that appointment. Hopefully it's just a dr telling me to eat better foods with those things or a pill or a shot. I'll take any of those options.

And if you're one of the lucky people who have experienced RLS(Restless Leg Syndrome) then welcome to my world. It only acts up right before bedtime so I have to watch what I drink at night. Caffeine makes it worse. Basically what happens is your legs just don't wanna sit still. They want to move. Lately even massages don't help. I may have found something that helps, but I'm not gonna be able to use that option in a few weeks because I don't want to knock myself into labor early or anything. Hoping to figure out other remedies.

So That's been pregnancy for now. Hoping to have a post or 2 more before she gets here. I can't wait to meet this little girl. I know her siblings are excited too!

Full Day Pre-K review

Today has literally been a stressful and emotional day for me. Heck the whole week has been pretty blah. Emma had 3 days of trying out full day preschool! I hadn't heard anything the 1st day she went so in my mind all was going well. Well, I was half right. I got a fun phone call today from Emma's half day teacher. It was a speaker call with a couple other teachers. They told me she had her ups and downs. I come to find out that she was being forced to use the stairs everytime they had to go upstairs instead of using the elevator. Last week her PT and I had agreed that during this trial she would only use the stairs once per day and the elevator the rest of the time. Then I find out that "oh, the elevator has been broke all week." "Um what???" Well no wonder my daughter wasn't fully cooperative. She was exhausted from using the steps so much in one day. She can do these steps but to do them a bunch in one day was a lot for her. That's why we had agreed only once a day. Then they tell me she was being bossy with another student asking them to get her something because she didn't want to get up and get it. Again, that was because she was exhausted.

So after all that was said, they came to a decision that Emma wasn't ready for a full day class with 20  students. They decided she would be better in a 6 and 6 class which is a class with 6 "regular" students and 6 students with disabilities. Well for her to have this type of program, guess what? She has to switch schools. I'm like great, we had enough troubles deciding on this school for her. So we have a decision to make before her next IEP meeting on April 11th. We were given 2 school choices. One has the same school hours as the school she is in. The other has a later start time of 830 and goes until 3. Well I think I'm going to go with the one where the hours are the same.

Why do I wanna keep her on the same school hours? Well, that's another story. My older daughter goes to another school where the time is 9:10-3:30. I called today and found out since we live too far from the school, she is not eligible for transportation. I thought that was dumb as fuck. Kayla will be going into 4th grade next year. I've grown to love her school and the teachers and the principal and vice principal. Everyone is great so I don't want to switch schools for her. Emma will have transportation no matter what because of her disability.

All day I was back and forth with my emotions. I was mad, sad, you name it. I'm mad because I wasn't given a phone call to inform me that the elevator was broken all week. I'm not the only parent at the school with a child with a disability. There are kids there in wheel chairs. What did those kids do this whole week? were those parents notified of the non working elevator? If so, why wasn't I given the same courtesy. I wouldn't have minded doing the full day another week. Then I was upset knowing I have to go through the whole pick a new school and get to know new people thing. I almost feel like Emma wasn't given a fair chance to show that she could handle things. She was robbed of that all because o the fucking elevator. Yes, I am blaming that one thing for this whole evaluation. It will be brought up at her IEP meeting in April. I feel like they just want to pass her along to someone else because maybe they decided they couldn't handle her. Maybe this is a good thing though. I didn't care much for that schools nurse. I mean what nurse needs a parent to come in and show her how to catheterize a child. Um, you should know how to do that. Yes i understand all kids are different but come on. That took time out of my day. I'm busy enough as it is.

Being a parent to a special needs child is tough at times. There are times where I just don't think I can do it, but I do. I know things will get back to some kind of normal at some point. I just hope we don't have to do the whole switch schools again after she does this 6 and 6 program because then I will be questioning this schooling system and pulling Emma from it and doing the home school thing.

I'm going to take these next couple of weeks and write out a bunch of questions for the meeting and just go from there. I'm sure I'll end up getting pissed off again at the meeting but we'll see.

Thanks for listening to a mom vent. It's been a long day with questioning my angels future.